When Wanza Leftwich and her husband were diagnosed with infertility several years ago, they were devastated. Like most couples, they dreamed of starting a family. After all, God instructed us to be fruitful and multiply. With the diagnosis, overwhelming fear of never being able to conceive a child crept in. Wanza feared the worst and asked herself many “what if” questions, including what if my husband leaves me? She spent days, weeks, months, and years with this worry and this fear until she was reminded of a Bible scripture she learned years prior when she was in college which says, “Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!” (Luke 1:45, NIV).
As she recalled the passage, she recognized that this was not only a assurance from God that He would fulfill His promises but the passage specifically said “to her” and this was exciting to Wanza since most scriptures refer to “he”. She firmly believed that at that moment God was speaking directly to her. She embraced this promise and moved forward with a new sense of confidence. Yes there were sometimes moments of despair, yes there were moments of disappointment, but through it all there was an overarching feeling of peace that she indeed would be a mother one day.
With this belief, she contemplated the suggestions that the doctors were making regarding In-Vitro Fertilization. But God was speaking through her husband when he decided they should wait. However, the longer it took the more fear crept right back in until she felt she had reached a breaking point and she cried out to God saying, I cannot keep living like this. In that moment of despair God spoke to her once again.
God said, I need you to get happy NOW. I need you to stay away from things that keep you depressed. I need you to stop reading all those blogs on infertility. I need you to go by My Word and speak what I say in My Word. I need you to speak and live as if things were already as you desire. With that, Wanza disconnected herself from the fear and the depression and started surrounding herself with life. She forced herself to be excited about mother’s day. She made a conscious decision to put herself in situations and environments where people had what she wanted – she attended baby showers, children’s birthday parties, supported less fortunate children, etc. You see, Wanza embraced the attitude that Hanna took in 1 Samuel 1:18 (KJV), “she went her way, ……and her countenance was no more sad.”
Just as God showed Hanna favor, God showed the same favor to Wanza and her husband. Today, they are blessed with two beautiful miracle girls, who are 7 and 4, and with no fertility treatments as the doctors had envisioned.
Currently, Wanza has a ministry helping women and families with fertility issues and teaching them that infertility is not the end, but is the beginning of a miracle. She has already authored a book, “Faith and Fertility” and is in the process of writing another. Indeed, there is no testimony without a test.
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What are the faith lessons in this beautiful story?
1. There is no testimony without a test. Stay the course and have faith (see 1 Thessalonians 3:1-13).
2. There is nothing too hard for God (see Genesis 18:14; Jeremiah 32:17; Jeremiah 32:27; and Luke 18:27).
3. You receive what you believe; don’t try to make it the other way around; act as if it were already so (see Mark 11:24).
4. Gravitate toward situations and people who are excelling in your area of weakness so you will be encouraged to think positive thoughts (see Philippians 4:8 and Romans 12:2).
We sincerely hope that you were blessed by this story and that the lessons shared will be helpful to you as you journey toward “Releasing the Fear and Walking in Faith”. Leave us a comment, share the story, like our page, walk in faith!!!